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No Less
04:21
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4:34 in the morning
I guess I just drove ten hours south to marry you
While my real husband was sleeping beside me
I’m awake, but it all still feels true
Past the border I came to a stoplight
Pictured you standing there dressed in black
But your face hadn’t changed since the day that I left you
And you still had your long hair pulled back
I don’t think that I ever quite got there
To the part where I donned a white dress
I think I almost woke up for a moment
’Cause it scared me to think I might love you no less
But that moment went by, the red light went green
And I got back on the 5 to make time
I’m not sure what we thought we were doing
’Cause you’re in LA and you like it there fine
And it’s all good up north here on my end
Wouldn’t want even one thing to change
When we sit on the couch watching planes crash on TV
Huddled close under blankets while it rains
Had to win lots of wars just to get here
Wouldn’t have guessed I was still under threat
’Cause I take pills; I’ve put state lines between us
And I’d never admit if I loved you no less
I was nearing the last of my exits
With my bridal veil still in the trunk
When the cops stopped my car and said, take a new route
Someone’s dead because someone was drunk
I got out and saw you on the shoulder
And I fell to my knees at your side
As your shirt caught my tears, I prayed to heaven this was all a bad dream
And then I opened my eyes
Now the light on my phone is as low as it goes
And my lover’s just trying to rest
And I’m back to my senses, but if not, I would call you
Saying long time no talk, but I love you no less
Long time no talk, but I love you no less
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The Lights Go On Forever
03:23
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Back when I told you goodbye
The never-ending city lights were beautiful
I wanted to drown in a hundred friends
Needed to hear a few more men call me beautiful
Now my camera’s full of pictures
Taken at the bar on Main
With some folks who think there’s two n’s in my name
So fly on down and save me now
Get me out of this godforsaken town
The lights go on forever
And I need you more than ever
So find me here and don’t look back
I’m a runaway train and you’re the right track
The lights go on forever
I wish that I’d known better
And I miss you
I get why folks watch late-night shows
People making a mess of themselves are beautiful
And changing pixels on my screen
Distract my head from thinking we were beautiful
But I went and lost that picture
That we took some years ago
’Cause my sneakers didn’t match your old green coat
(chorus)
There’s a nightmare I’ve been having for some time now
Where every single thing I touch turns into gold
You’ll come knocking and I’ll wrap my arms around you
Then I wake up shaking in the cold
(chorus x2)
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3. |
April Showers
03:37
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Hello, it’s me, I’m home
I know it’s been some time, but I’ve missed you so
Hello, it’s me, I’m home
Hello, it’s me, I’m home
I hope you’ll recognize me as I am
Hello, it’s me, I’m home
Tell me, does the thunderstorm still make it feel like
The house is safe and warm?
Pictures on the mantelpiece and dogs lie sleeping
This place I once belonged
Hello, it’s me, I’m home
Some years ago you bought me a raincoat
Hello, it’s me, I’m home
Hello, it’s me, I’m home
I wish I even knew why I’m drenched and cold
Hello, it’s me, I’m home
Tell me, does the rain still make an angel of me
As April showers come down?
If you let me in and shine a bright light on me
Maybe then I’ll be found
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4. |
To My Core
03:00
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We walked a million blocks down an empty street
Seemed like you couldn’t stop talking real to me
And I was questioning whether I should let you in
’Til I saw that I already had
Boy, you cut right to my core, and it hurts so good
Yeah, you cut right to my core, you got me understood
No point in trying to hide from those sharp black eyes
Seeing through to my truth again
And my heart is a jungle
But you somehow found your way
And this love is a labyrinth
But I think we’ll come out OK
You let down your long black hair when the lights go dark
You rest your eyes on me like I’m a work of art
Looks like I’ve found somebody who’ll be tough to quit
Like a time bomb who’s tied to my heart
’Cause you cut right to my core every single time
Yeah, you cut right to my core, you make me come alive
And when we go our ways, I know you’re gonna stay
In my memory forevermore
And I hope that you’ll call me
When I’m far away
But I’ll sleep better just knowing
An old soul’s holding down this place
’Cause you cut right to my core every single time
You’ll cut me right to my core when you say goodbye
But when we go our ways, I know you’re gonna stay
In my memory forevermore
In my memory forevermore
And when we go our ways, I know you’re gonna stay
In my memory forevermore
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Savior Complex Sister
04:48
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There used to be a face behind this mask
There used to be a place that felt like home behind this door
There used to be a voice inside this empty shell
Singing songs on a golden shore
Someone to hold your broken church together
To help you bring your lost believers back
Somebody young and fresh and inexpensive
A smiling face, even a painted mask
All of my life I’ve wanted love so badly
I’d sign my name in ink for anyone
I wouldn’t say you took advantage of me
Most prayers have answers; yours was a trick question
But there used to be a face behind this mask
There used to be a place that felt like home behind this door
There used to be a voice inside this empty shell
Singing songs on a golden shore
I wonder who you were before life told you
That you’re just the sum of what you take or give
Somebody told me that they used to know you
With wild red hair, playing outside with kids
I wish I weren’t ashamed of my own reflection
I wish it didn’t hurt to hear my name
I wish you’d never said the things you said to me
And it makes me sorry to think you’ve been through the same
’Cause… (chorus)
Your cheeks are red from all the times you’ve turned them
Your hands are red from all the cheeks they’ve turned
And all those lessons that you preach to children
Are ones that you yourself have yet to learn
What does it take to save a would-be savior?
What would it take to save the one who tried?
Was it to watch these fools he left behind him
Dressing up as him, was that why Jesus died?
Well, … (chorus 3x)
I wonder who your children think their mother is
I wonder who my mother thinks I am
I’d resurrect you if I had the power
But all I want is to see my own face again
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6. |
I Will
04:31
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I think I’ve found the one
Hooray for me, champagne time
I think I’ve fooled someone
Into loving the likes of me
Last night a dear old friend
Called in to send best wishes
He says we’re fit to wed
We might just last for always
But I don’t believe in fortune telling
I don’t believe in magic
And I kind of feel like all this going on’s not for us
I just want to stay awake past bedtime
Making laugh lines on your face
I don’t want to walk in a married woman’s shoes
But I will for you
I just want to fall asleep on your chest
Like the child I used to be
I don’t want to walk in a married woman’s shoes
But I will for you
For you I’ll buy new things
As time goes on we’ll need them
For you I’ll wear my ring
Even when I’m sleeping
But I’ve never heard of perfect endings
They seem so hard to fathom
And if that’s what we’ve signed up for now, better brace ourselves
(chorus)
I’d known you for a week
When you saw that my heart was broken
And “you will not lose me”
Are my favorite words you’ve spoken
But I still don’t want a perfect wedding
’Cause we’re not perfect either
And I hope our family and friends never think we are
(chorus)
I just want to fall asleep on your chest
Like the child you see in me
I don’t want to walk in a married woman’s shoes
But I will for you, for you
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Peace
03:38
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I walked around the block; I had no messages to answer
I heard the birds up in the pines and watched the horses canter
I stared across the evening sky above the sleeping farms
And it felt so wrong; it felt so upside down
I tried to think of what I must be missing, but I couldn't
I dared my phone to ring inside my pocket, but it wouldn't
I closed my eyes and waited for directions, but none came
And I felt so wrong; I felt so upside down
Help me, I’m happy
Help me, I’m at peace
Help me, I’m confused
And the lilac air smells too sweet
It’s like I’ve bust a cage and now I have no bars to cling to
There’s rust between my palms and wounds embedded in my pride
Some tasteless painter figured I’d go nice beside these flowers
I don’t belong here; I need to go inside
Help me, I’m happy
Help me, I’m at peace
Help me, I can't walk
Upon these steady mindful feet
A coffee mug once told me that the world will stay at war
Until we rock to sleep those weeping children in our hearts
So help me learn to stand here
As this screwed-up earth turns east
While the colors change from blue to pink
With dots of Canada geese
’Cause no one’s ever taught me how
To be at peace with peace
And I am trying as hard as I know how
To be at peace with peace
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8. |
Call Your Dad
02:30
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Don’t fold the laundry, don’t pay the rent
Don’t put away the Christmas gifts your mother sent
Don’t check your inbox, don’t make the bed
Don’t you ignore that nagging voice inside your head
Just call your dad
Just call your dad
Unpacking boxes, I stumbled on
Photos he took of you way back when you were young
I know it’s hard to think what to say
Besides how are you, I hope the kids are doing great
Just call your dad
Just call your dad
Something befell him, something bad
Hard to predict it, but the odds are helped
When it’s caught early on in otherwise good health
You’ve got his nature, those dreaming eyes
Maybe he doesn’t even know how much you’ve cried
Just call your dad
Just call your dad
Someday we’ll know how much time we had
Just call your dad
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9. |
Beach Blankets
05:09
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I tore through the closet for my beach blankets
Before I remembered where they are
I was too numb to walk on the night things ended
So I left them lying in your car
I highly doubt you'll need them down in SoCal
But I kinda hope you'll keep them anyway
’Cause I still haven't sent back the novels you lent me
Or even read the final page
I guess I’m holding onto all you gave to me
Ashes, ashes singing clear
Something good is gone
Something good was here
Our better angels warned us early on
One day we’d reach a bitter end
If I could turn back time
I'd choose to make the same mistake again
When I close both my eyes it’s the end of July
Going up 99 with you behind the wheel
Hoping to spend our last week building fires by the beach
Holding hands to memorize how it feels
You say you’d like to lay our love to rest cleanly
If we walk away, the sparks will fade with time
I guess this is what I signed up for, before I really knew you
Not a clue what I’d be leaving behind
’Cause now I’m… (chorus)
Wildfires raging in the sky above
Giant sequoias burning back into dust
And I began to wonder, will the soul of this love
Take some other form when time is up?
I recall that we stayed in a Fresno motel
Because the lake was up in smoke too thick to breathe
That night I saw your face backwards in the bathroom mirror
Like a stranger staring straight through me
As we headed back south, you kept your eyes on the road
And I knew I’d never be the same if I tried
’Cause whether we were a forest that burned, or just a strange wrong turn
You'll be part of me for all my life
And I’ll be… (chorus)
If I could turn back time
I'd choose to make the same mistake again
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10. |
Vancouver
03:40
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Close the door and I breathe deep
The sky is dark, the air is clean
Lights in windows all along our street
No sign of billboards anywhere
I’m not gonna try getting famous out here
It’s been a dream for twenty-six long years
And it’s over now, it’s over now, it’s over now
The silence that once frightened me is all around
And the rain that always clears my head is falling down
And it’s over now, it’s over now, it’s over now
Drinks at the bar while a folk band plays
Tapping our feet to an acoustic bass
Solving the mysteries in each other’s face
You say you’re glad to see I’ve changed
From trying to win somebody else’s praise
So concerned with what might become of my name
Well I’m older now, I’m older now, I’m older now
I’d rather be right here than somewhere selling out
And the rain that always clears my head is falling down
And it’s over now, it’s over now, it’s over now
I roll my window down to hear the crickets sing
Street musicians earning nothing
Never to know the wounds they’re healing
I was once a kid making up songs
In back of a car with the radio on
Pictured my name typed up in cursive font
I guess I’ve been so preoccupied
Trying to live somebody else's life
And you've been waiting for me all this time
Well, it’s over now, it’s over now, it’s over now
’Cause here we are with an old guitar on this tiny couch
And the rain that always clears my head is pouring down
And it’s over now, it’s over now, it’s over now
Yes, it’s over now, it’s over now, it’s over now
’Cause here I am in Vancouver and I’m not coming out
And the rain that always clears my head is pouring down
And it’s over now, it’s over now, it’s over now
It’s over now, it’s over now, it’s over now
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11. |
Dragon
03:44
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Today I drew a dragon
Lighting fires as it breathes
Someone told me, hey, that’s good
Why don’t you quit your job
I said f you in Nice Personese
I’m slowly coming loose
Like a warm pen full of ink
Making messes everywhere
Telling friends to close their eyes
And just hear themselves think
See I’ve been living life afraid
Of what I’ll never be
But you loved me enough to let me go
Maybe I’m seeing what you saw in me
Wouldn’t leave my work
You kept on telling me I should
I said, I was born to help
Even if it breaks my bones
In my ear you whispered, f*** the greater good
I miss the way you’d scare me
Looking so deep into my eyes
I once asked if you’d sketch me
You shook your head and said
You’d never get the lines right
(chorus, instrumental)
And you may never fully know
The dragon you set free
’Cause you loved me enough to let me go
Maybe I’d see what you saw in me
In me
In me
In me
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